"it's been a long time... I shouldn't have left you..."
Good! We got that out the way! Its been TOO many times in this New Year that I've wanted to do this && just didn't feel like I had a good enough subject to blog about. I wanted to blog about my weave... not eventful enough. I wanted to blog about my SANTANIC ass roommate... Eventful but I didn't wanna go to jail or cloud my blog-o-sphere with her mess. So... what brings me to you today??
Fuckery!!!
Ok, maybe not a bunch of it but it's alot inside of me that I feel the need to get off my chest. You know, its ALOT of shit that TRULY bothers my soul && I don't say too much. I pretty much keep it inside & try to block it out. But it ends up coming out in the WORST way. It's never intentional. I never mean it to hurt anyone but damn, that word vomit!!!
I was having a convo with my bestie (Shoutout to J-Skillz... Check us out over there --->) about the current men in my life. Now, being 21, I don't expect to find THE ONE. No, not just yet. But... I do expect FUCKING HONESTY!!! I mean, is that so much to ask??? Now... Honesty isn't telling me every move you make... it's letting me know what the EFF I'm getting myself into. I mean, let me know! I LOTHE having to go searching. I hate having to ask. And (most importantly) I HATE investing my feelings into someone when I know that a day will come where I'm going to have to repress them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that everyone has to be dropped -BUT- they kinda do. Call me selfish but it's Me. Its Sadea Lynette, I tell you from the gate who I am && what I do. I have never been one to hide that but others do. I mean, do I look like I have stupid stamped on my head??? And... poor other girl! I feel bad being a part in something that would hurt her. I do like you (subliminal!!!) but I can't do her like that.My emos matter but Love is strong && even though it's not my place... it became my B.I. I wish you happiness...
Another issue I'm facing is negativity && lies... and this goes for both sexes. The one thing I CANNOT dig is a Hater. Why hate on the next person 'cuz you aren't getting what you want? Now, everybody does it at time but its the Constant hating that is bothersome. Why can't you just be Happy && Work Hard??? Does life really Suck that much for you?? It's ridiculous! Get your life together!
Now I do have Some positivity to share... Explicit Content is doing great! Mimi && I wanna thank everyone who has showed us love: Fly.U... Yonny... GTC && er-body else who has shown us love. We do Appreciate ya'll!
Ok Folks, before I start naming names && letting the cat out the bag... I need to hop my Happy ass off here. Commence the Fuckery!!!
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